Here's the deal.................so, WHAT'S the deal????

Okay, I’m having to face a hard reality today brought about by a couple of things going on in my life right now.

Yesterday, my van left me stranded in the parking lot at Stein Mart around 4:30 PM. Yikes, Friday afternoon, 4:30 PM, van won’t crank. Oh my!!! Long story short (and YES, I can shorten a story. LOL!!)……I got home around 7 PM with a brand new battery in my van. All is well. I was surprised by this turn of events, but my Heavenly Father was NOT surprised by this at all. In fact, He had started putting in place things as long as a year ago so that I would have what I needed to get through this situation unscathed.

Here's my deal: I continue daily to reap the benefits of my work and efforts to lose weight and regain my health and mobility over this past year. So, why am I struggling with my determination, motivation and commitment to my journey these past few months?

Here’s His deal:
• Over a year ago, I put in my van the small yellow pages book that I got in the mail. This was needed to look up phone numbers to call for help.
• One year ago, today, I joined Weight Watchers and hired a personal trainer and got serious about getting healthy and in shape. This is important because while I was waiting on the tow truck, I had to go to the bathroom. Because I was meeting someone in the parking lot to get some things I had ordered, I was parked at the entrance of the lot so she could spot me easily when she arrived. This meant a lengthy walk to the store and then the restrooms were in the back of the store. I made it and could actually still breathe when I got back to my van.
• Because the day was “casual dress day” at the office, I had on sweat pants and a tee shirt under my sweat shirt, so I was not freezing while I waited. It has been really cold here the last few days!!
• As I said, I was meeting a friend to get something from her. I had suggested we meet at a small church parking lot closer to where she was going to be. She insisted she meet me in the Stein Mart parking lot even though it was 5-6 miles out of her way. God knew I needed to be near a restroom since I’d be there a while.

So, WHAT’S the deal???? Why am I struggling so with my weight loss journey right now? Why am I walking on both sides of the line?

Today, as I have mulled over and over and over this question, I have faced some hard realities as well as some wonderful realities of my life this year versus this same time last year.
• Losing weight is hard.
• Being able to walk is wonderful.
• I’m tired of cooking.
• Being able to get in smaller clothes is wonderful.
• I’m tired of grocery shopping.
• Not feeling bloated from fast-foods is wonderful.
• I’m tired of tracking my food.
• Being off my BP meds is wonderful.
• I’m tired of figuring the points of foods.
• Walking without pain is wonderful.
• I’m tired of washing my bathing suit and towel so often each week.
• Being in the swimming pool is wonderful.
• Losing weight is hard.
• Being fat is hard.

I have a choice. I have a daily, actually moment-by-moment, choice to make. I can choose to do nothing and begin the process of gaining. I can choose to do something and begin the process of losing. It is my choice.

Hmmmmmmmmm. Interesting reality.

Do nothing = gaining.

Do something = losing.

The result of those choices seems somewhat backwards. But, I assure you, in this situation, it is not.

So, what will my choice be? The day has come when I realize that the choice of doing nothing is harder than the choice of doing something. Therefore, I am choosing to do something. I will continue the fight that I began one year ago today.............I will continue to regain my health and my life!! That's MY choice!!!!!

Oh, and once the tow truck got to me and jumped my battery and I was driving to the auto repair shop, here is what God gave me to remind me that He is worthy of so much more than I can ever begin to give Him.