I'll admit that I've had some stinking thinking (stuff like: give it up, this is too hard, this isn't working, why bother) going on since yesterday's weigh-in. I did pretty good keeping those stinking thoughts quiet until yesterday afternoon...........then, just kind of went downhill from there. However, all mixed in with the "stinking thinking" are the resounding words, "NO, DON'T YOU STOP!!!!" I can't honestly say that those four words are winning out, but they are there...........loudly there. And, that's a good thing.
Today has been a day of lazy POINTS. There really isn't anything in my house except POINT-friendly foods.......which is a good thing.
I've just spent the last few hours visiting websites of folks who have lost 100+ pounds. If any of you are reading this, please know how encouraging your stories and pictures are to me. I kept telling myself as I read your stories that if YOU can do this, then I can do this.
I also looked through my digital pictures folders. I found this picture of Niagara Falls that I took when I visited a friend in Canada in October 2001. I long to stand on that sidewalk beside that friend again and see those incredible Falls! I cannot do that again until I am in better physical shape.Choice. What choice am I going to make today? The choice is mine. What will it be?
Am I willing to "give it up" and gain back what I've lost? No.
Am I going to believe that "this isn't working" when I've lost over 55 pounds and 27.5 inches over my body? No.
Am I going to continue to allow this "stinking thinking" to grow and fester in my mind? No.
Am I willing to give up my dream to return to Niagara Falls? No.
So, what's my choice? I really have only one choice -- to continue fighting the good fight to regain my life and health. So, the choice is made. Yesterday is over and today is what it is...........tomorrow is a new day. I'm choosing to continue the journey I have begun. The choice is completely mine.
2 comments:
Hangeth thou in there, Hupo! TODAY is a new day! Choose life! :)
>>I long to stand on that sidewalk beside that friend again and see those incredible Falls!>>
I like that dream :)
I am with you on the scale issues. Mine hasn't moved for a couple of months now. Hasn't gone down BUT it hasn't gone up either. People are still complimenting me, however, so something must be happening.
I need someone to motivate me to get to the gym because I know that is why I'm not seeing progress. I don't have the $$$ for a trainer so I depend on myself to motivate me and I'm not doing such a great job at it.
Anyhow, keep on keeping on. I've vowed not to give up on this desire to lose weight even if it takes me the 1,2,3, 4 or more years to get to goal. At least we're headed in the right direction :)
Sharon C.
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